Well I do believe that my blogging time is over. I have found that Face Book allows me to share bits and pieces quickly. I no longer feel that I have time to sit and update this all the time. Not only that but not even sure how many people still read what I post. So farewell to you all, it has been wonderful to share the story of our Lilly in Wonderland.

This digital ecard made with Smilebox

Every year around this time, I am so emotional.I am so drawn to another woman. This woman? Lilly's birthmother. As a mom who carried 4 babies inside her I remember the attachment I had with each of them. So begins the emotional rollercoaster of it all.

The question I will never have answered is, do you think about this baby that you carried for 9 months? Especially today? Are there any special things you remember about being pregnant with her? Or was your life to upsidedown to remember anything but chaos? How I would love to know the details behind it all.

There are many, times I have dreamed of walking down a crowded sidewalk in China. During one of these imaginary walks I look up just in time to see a woman. This woman, whom I don't know, but do feel like I know. Her eyes, sad somehow, but when I look into them they are so familiar. I look again and see my daughter in her eyes, in her face. Just then I want to stop her and ask her if she had a daughter in 2005. When she answers no, but her eyes say yes, I reach for her hands. There is a connection between us and I tell her thank you. Then I inform her that she is beautiful, healthy and confident. I see the sadness in her eyes change to one of release. Nothing more is said, I just pull out a photo and show her. She cries, and I know the feeling. We hug, and she tells me thank you. I leave her with the photo and she then disappears again in the crowd.

This is the dream I have dreamed so many times. All I want to do is let this woman know what a beautiful gift that she gave the world on that hot day in China 6 short years ago.

Lilly has become such a wonderful young lady. The time since we got her has gone by way, way to fast. I find myself longing for the days when she was little again. All too soon I know she will be grown and gone just like the boys.

As I was taking the pictures of her in her special birthday dress I was reminded how much she has changed. Our daughter was shy and very bashful. Now she is confident and a go getter. She loves to be around people and loves to show off. Lilly would be great on stage either singing or modeling. I know one day you will be seeing great things from this little girl!

Lilly I love you so much and there are times when I know you don't think I do. It is called being a mom. Someday you will understand why I do the things I do. Also, someday I hope you have kids so that you can experience being a mom. In the meantime please quit growing up so fast. I just want you to stay little for a while longer.

Happy 6th Birthday Shui Cong AKA Lillian Jian Rae Bennett!! We all love you so much!!! Thank you for blessing our lives.

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This free digital scrapbooking design made with Smilebox

This free picture collage personalized with Smilebox

Well since I did this scrap page Lilly has lost a second tooth on the bottom and two bright shiny new big teeth are already showing! I can't believe how fast she is growing up!

If you want to see the scrap pages bigger all you have to do is click on them. This one of Lilly with blue eyes is really cool. I am trying to learn new things with Photoshop and this is one of the latest I learned. Cool huh?!

Swimming, swimming just keep swimming! The only way to beat the heat in Texas!

I love the new little doll that Lilly has. Very unconventional but still cute. It is a step toward her independance I think she is slowly getting away from the whole princess thing. I love watching her change and grow.